I’m so goddamn tired, cant tell if I’m done, or just un-inspired
and don’t give me that you can be somebody speech
that ain’t your place, let me be
I’m an example of a candle lit life
with electric relaxation, brain trampled by devotion
to remote control channel changin
something provoked the whole globe to lower expectations
damn, what’s wrong with my generation?
we was the cream of the crop but it seems we’ve been robbed
that’s what happens when you trade in all your dreams for a job
and every day it gets less and less exciting
I would make a difference but I’m busy faking this instead of trying
change my shift from now to never and I’ll pretend I’m fine
why am I stuck at the shitty end of the assembly line
I guess I’m built to be intoxicated with hope
sometimes it’s a journey, most the time it’s just a bad joke
and in my scroll there’s a junk drawr I can’t organize
the first to come in last to leave we’ll never be immortalized
this sort of life is completely overrated, I’m sick of being the
only one I know that’s trying to take it
so right now I’m heading home, got sounds of nature for you born in
my headphones and half a bottle of pregnazone
that’s the reaction to an overdose of passion
brainless, stagnant…aint it magic

I never knew ambition could be so fuckin disgusting
I earn a good comission but it makes me feel so ugly
I’m on some not even knowing I’m an illuminatis just as long
as playin aging doesn’t disrupt my funerals progress
I ain’t changin for you I’m not reaching for the sky, I would
if you could give me one good reason why I should even try
because after a while this never ending lame game of what’s better
could fracture your smiles mainframe forever
it’s so fun to be in love..or so I’ve heard
the meaning has no feeling even though I understand the word
I used to try to make heaven right here on earth but that’ll only
happen if you find someone else to do the work
I’ll be suprised when my psychosis turns out to keep the driving focus
while I hold the same blurred cloud as burnt out dope heads
so for now my worthless counterwork has found a purpose everytime a
pound of dirt produced I get my frown referbished
two for one specials, if you order show the devils, head swole
running out of petrol but I wont let go of this gas pedal
till I’m settled and they finally ?? me with that sweet blind security
so insecure and messy, mark today the day that dedication died
instead of saying goodbye, I’m staying praying that’ll I’ll stay alive
because even though I know I hate to love you so much
I got no better place to go, that’s why I always show up

The reasons why I’m still here.
—not meaning dead, just here.

lucy takes the long way home
meets me in a field of stone
she says “i don’t know how i’m s’pose to feel
my body’s cold my guts are twisted steel.”

and i feel like i’m some kind of frankenstein
waiting for a shock to bring me back to life
but i don’t want to spend my time
waiting for lightning to strike.

so underneath the concrete sky
lucy puts her hand in mine
she says “life’s a game we’re meant to lose.
but stick by me and i will stick by you.”

ayeesammytran:

khlamydiaa:

wherelifeissimple:

This theory says that there is more behind Nickelodeon’s Rugrats besides being a cute show for little kids to watch. In fact, some people are saying that the show has this whole psychological meaning behind it centering around Angelica having a psychotic break at the age of 3 after having too many traumatic accidents happen in her family at such a young age.

• All of the rugrats are a figment of Angelica’s imagination. Now that’s not so horrible by itself, but then we learn why Angelica made them up.
• Chuckie died with his mother in childbirth. This is why his dad is always so worried about him in the show.
• Tommy was stillborn, making his dad have some kind of break and sit in the basement to make toys for the son he was supposed to have.
• The DeVilles had an abortion. Angelica never found out if the baby was supposed to be a boy or a girl so she decided to make it twins. Then, she gave them matching names and personas because there probably would have been only one child if there was no abortion.
• The reason behind these delusions have been blamed on Angelica’s nonexistent relationship with her mother and her manipulative one with her father. Thus, Angelica had no one to turn to when she needed help dealing with the babies’ deaths and resorted to making up the lives they should have lived.

In All Grown Up, Angelica is a bipolar schizophrenic addicted to narcotics and heroin because they help her keep her delusions alive. At this point, we learn that Angelica’s biological mom died from a heroin overdose and Angelica’s disease because she’s a crack baby. Her real mom’s name was Cynthia, hence her doll’s name. The woman from “Rugrats” who was Angelica’s mother is really her gold-digging step-mom who Angelica idolized.

When “All Grown Up” was canceled, Angelica died of an overdose just like her mother.

Dil is the only baby who isn’t fictional. However, Angelica never accepted him as being real and accidentally hit him too hard while trying to make him go away once, resulting in brain damage. This is why he’s such an odd child in “All Grown Up.”

Suzie was actually Angelica’s friend. The theory says that she grew up to become a psychologist and joined the Nickelodeon team to invent the “Rugrats” TV show, finally explaining the origin of the theory.

i feel so…. i loved this show

what the hell.